It's Friday! TGIF! Mostly, I'm just ready to get through the weekend and get to Monday - that's when I get to take a pregnancy test and find out whether I'm having a baby. My daughter Emerson asked me today if I had a baby in my belly. I said, "I don't know". I still try not to let myself think about it too much - afraid that if my mind wanders, it will just go places that aren't helpful. So, I continue to challenge myself to stay present, in the moment, enjoy life and what today brings.
I've had many people tell me or my husband how they are praying for us, praying that God would grant us another healthy baby. I told Adam this morning that at least if God says "no" about having another baby, we know we had prayer support and God definitely has a reason for saying no. I know he wouldn't just not let me be pregnant out of being mean. That's not who God is. If I'm not pregnant, I trust God and His grand purposes.
I thought it would be helpful to make a list of the things I'm grateful for - that no matter what the result of Monday is - I can reflect and be aware of the many blessings. So here's my list, not exhaustive by any means....
1. a wonderful husband and daughter
2. great extended family - parents and in-laws
3. a healthy mind and body
4. the ability to be active
5. my salvation - I serve a God who is gracious, and merciful, and forgiving, and perfect in every way
6. I get to stay home and raise my daughter - my husband works hard to provide for our needs
7. we have a great church community with great friends
Life is good - that won't change on Monday!