I've been wanting to blog about something profound or transformational, but honestly I've just been steadily plodding along. But, I guess, most of life is steady plodding, isn't it?
I get to take a pregnancy test next Monday. I've been trying hard not to rush the week away, thinking about what the news might be next week, and what will happen after i find out the news, and....Instead of being caught up in trying to fast forward life, I've been trying to stay present and engaged to what is going on each day in my life- to stay present and engaged with the people in my life, to enjoy the present as much as I can. Tomorrow will come soon enough, but I don't want to be a person who wishes I could turn back time and enjoy moments longer and better. We live in such a fast paced society, rushing through the days and weeks and months. I want to be a person not rushing. I want to be a person who can stop and smell the roses. I want to live each day with meaning and purpose, even if it's just a mundane day.
I will deal with next Monday when it comes, and I hope to deal with the day with grace and strength no matter what the test results might be.