Crazy Love

I'm reading the book, Crazy Love, by Francis Chan. It's challenged and convicted me in so many ways. The thing I'm most challenged by today is whether I'm serving leftovers to a Holy God? Am I living life in a way where I put my desires and wants above God? Sadly, most of the time, I feel like I am driven by my agenda or my to-do list rather than living a surrendered life and agenda for Jesus to work and move in and around me. If I am filling up my time with "my things", how do I even know when Jesus is moving around me or when He wants me to do something? I say I love Jesus more than anything, but am I living in a way that reflects my love for Him? It takes the Holy Spirit's help to die to our flesh daily and to live surrendered, obedient lives. Without His help, we will constantly fail in our flesh. To love Jesus fully, I have to be focused on Him completely and intently. I have to hear His whispers. I have to know when He's calling me to give, or to love, or to serve. I have to be pursuing Him. How does this affect my daily life? All I know is that I must hold on to my "agenda" loosely, be prayerful and aware of God at all times. Jesus, help me to love you well! Help me to show that love to others, no matter what the cost. I pray I will die to myself more each day so that you can be alive and at work in me.